Miss those days.

32 hours to go, 2009 has come to an end. Thinking back things that happened this year...such an unforgetable year! From the day I fall..., I stood up... and now become a happy girl. Everything just like happen in a blink of an eyes. And now, someone has coloured my life. A girl without a past won't grow up.

I miss those days with my close friends. I miss all the actitvites whenever hang out with them. We together sing k, watch movie, shopping, eat nice foods, celebrate birthday and the latest one, genting trip! There's a close friend of mine, whenever I was down, this friend will ask me out for yum cha, tell everything out and give me suggestion.thank you.I'll appreciate this friend very much. As what daddy said I only know them not more than a year, at least I know which one is good friend right? You can build a long relationship with your close friends. But not the years of your friends that you meet consider as your close friends right?

Let's pictures remind back part of the happy moments...

This picture is the very first time I sat Jane's car to sunway to meet my sister.=)

I'm not going to show out all the pictures because is too many. There's also some memory in my mind that not taken down as a picture. Anyway, past is past. We need to move forward to our life. As the person said 'always look on the bright side of life'. >.< (Make it mine & I'm yours)

-米修

Draw a smile.

I know this will happen. Should be used to it. So, just put a smile on my face whenever it happen again. I will do everything but not communicate.

=)

Merry Christmas.

Merry Christmas~~!

不去想太多。晚安！=(

Everything is blind.

"The clock is running. Make the most of today. Time waits for no man. Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift. That's why it is called the present."

under control

All is under control. I feel like I'm living in the world is meaningless now...

Yes. Everthing under control is good for me. But, how's my feeling?

forever innocent?

如果事情那么简单那就好了。但，人的想法变了，世界都随着人类转变了，样样都不同了。就这样，我也要随着他们的转变，要变成一个自私又不单纯的人。也只有这样才能生存在这世界上。

我好累。。事情如果那么简单那就好了。。

Mirror

Do you ever try to look yourself in the mirror to get to know how much you understand yourself? Even if you do so, do you manage to know yourself? Just imagine, you is the only one that know yourself more than others and can you expect others will understand you? The answer is no.

Yes, I have lots of negative thought in my mind. Due to the environment and situation happened, can you still able to have positive thought in your mind?

-I cry, is just blaming myself and not blaming you.

-I like to go starbucks to get a drinks is because there's the only place I can find myself to happy.

-I go out, not because of what celebration or whatever, I just want to relax myself because I can't accept the facts and face the problem.

-I like friends, not because of I putting them as my first place, they is the only one I can talk to.

-I seldom talk to you, not because of I don't like you, because we have communication problem.

I want a silent night for tonight.=).. I know they love and care me.

No one will understand you. Even if they do, they are actually NOT.

Positive.

Be Positive.

I have to accept and face my problem now.
I feel happy tonight.=X

songs rock my life.

Oldies thought.

The days finally came. It's the end of my life? Actually I should said I already know before I get it. I even have made the decision. But, how come now seems like..........

I always thought I have made my mind clear and don't bother about ages or how's people look at me. Come to university's life, there's lots of different ages of students and should be a normal situation right? When only I can open my mind? Now, my mind is full of oldies thought.All just a bull shit. Maybe I just use this as a reason for me so that I will feel better.

I should not take my worry as a problem. The most biggest thing that I should worry is my parents. Sorry mom and dad. I need you guys to spend another digits of money for me to study for foundation again. I know, we able to enter college also because of the planning and the saving earlier from parents for each of us.

I should stop negative thinking from now on. The sky is wide, the chances is there. However, once fall down, take it as a experience. Do not take it as the end of the world becuase life will go up and down.

在这时刻，我深深的了解到‘失败为成功之母’的成语。失敗往往是成功的先導。指從失敗中吸取教訓，最後取得勝利。现在我可是怎么了？我好害怕面对我的新生活。。

The days

The days where all my friends went to trip and enjoying themselves, I can felt the silent wind blowing around me. Ofcourse, they still sms with me and planning trip with me.=) However, problems just keeping inside heart. Will the feeling be nice if keeping inside your heart? After I cried out everything is ok already.

I bought 'new moon' book from popular today. sounds weird? This is my ever first time bought a book to read for my entertainment. A good start huh?

Keep it strong and move along.

fml? sorry for using rude word. But, who's care right? I only use for myself.

I always believe that don't care how people look down at me and as long as friends and family is NOT then is enough for me. However, don't be innocent ok? The world is not as simple as what your innocent thought. I know I'm the useless one among four of us. Although you always say you do not compare to them, the way you treat me and others, I can feel it. There's no right and wrong because this is a normal human response or act. So, can not blame anyone and just can blame myself that I am useless.

No more innocent Angel in this world right? I can put down stupid love thingy but why not everthing that happen? Let's keep it strong and move along!Yo~~sok yan!=)

My 18th birthday

I'm finally legal 18! My 18th birthday was pretty awesome! lots of first time experience and surprises! Few unexpected surprise birthday celebration from my lovely friends! Firstly, I would like to thank you every single of my friends who wished me. Your wishes really mean alot to me!=)

The day before my birthday, whole family and I went to Pasta Zanmai, Sunway to had our dinner. Also, we bought two cakes from RT bakery house too! That's all my suggestion.

My earlier celebration of my birthday from fmaily was nice because lots of nice foodsssss!=)....Thx u mummy and daddy.♥

After that, Shaun and Ee yin came to house to study account together and ended up I videocall-ing with my little cuttie Jane. She draw a birthday cake for me before the half an hour to 12 o'clock.=) . She also tagged my 'limited edition' of ugly pictures on my fb.lolx.=X

Thank you my lovely Jane. Here's my BIG kiss. muahahahaaha~~~

All in a sudden, 5 minutes before 12 o'clock, Shaun and Ee yin asked me to pack my thing to move out from the house and Cindy was waiting outside the house. I was shocked with an unprepared emotions. Plan of going to Wongkok but closed. So, we went to Sakae. Due to the steak house gonna close, we went back to my house to celebrate.:D

An uncountable of thank you to you guys. the cakes, the surprises, the late staying, the drinks and the heartsssssss..♥....I had a sweet sleep after this.:)

The afternoon, Shaun fetched Cindy and me to Subang to have our group study for account. However, I was so surprised that two of best buddy, Jane and Jer lin and Jia wei was there too. They waited me for like hours? I am here to apologise for letting you guys wait for so long.
I thought you guys were busying revision but you guys still spending times for me. thank you very much. Other than thank you, I seriously duno what to say already. > . <

Also, I need to thank you Shaun, Cindy, Shirl min and Carel for the starbucks presents.=)..(If I miss out some people plzzzzz tell me and sorry about that).I love it very very very muchhh...♥...I want it for like long time ago.=p


After that, Shaun, Cindy and I went to starbucks to do our revision on accounts. Aww, I finally completed to collect 11 stamps of strabucks to exchange 2010 planner on that day too! I ♥ the planner so much. At night, 7 minutes before 12 o'clock, my little cute Lim Soh Jane called me to accompany me to end my birthday.teheeeeeeeee~~~~feel so sweettt...muackz..♥.

21th of November, my pudu girl school's friends of gathering. We went to eat steamboat around the Yulek area.Yummy~~first time eat steamboat with friends!=).After full up our stomach, we went back to my house to have karaoke session. Nerissa and Pui jie joined us later. Well, we sing until half, Pooi Yen asked me for borrow her my laptop. So, I went up to bring down the laptop for her. When I came down that time, Nerissa was holding a cake walking toward me from the door. I didn't expected this will happen because I thought it was just a gathering since we didn't meet for each other for quite a long time. Ofcourse, I'm very HAPPY!=)

We together sing, shout and have joy after that and until 12.30. Thank you you all very much, Pui jie(the ♥ one who help me organise this gathering), Sin hong, Nerissa, and Pooi yen.heart you guys.♥.That night, Sin hong accompany me to stay over night in my house while others went back.=). We watched drama and chit-chating until 5 o'clock and fall asleep.very niceeeeeeeeeee...♥♥. Woke up early in the morning the next day and we went to eat dim sum together with Nerissa. Is quite a long time three of us didn't meet up together huh? Here's the time.=)

Any different of the look? one is taken in form 3 and another one is now.hahaha...=)♥.

This year birthday was pretty awesome! Also the most unforgetable birthday celebration for me so far in this 18 years! Friends, thank you for everything that you have done for me.I know a thousand thank you is not enough to cover up. But, I am seriously appreciate it a lot. *hugies*. love ya.♥