Failure

I'm BACK! I'm Back! I'm Backkkk!!

An angel with whole new life.

An angel with no more placing love as the main in her life.

She found out that there's not worth from now on.

Am I a failure? Over this 16 years in my life, everything goes smoothly and didn't face any 'BIG' problem before. I always heard of people saying that "time can not be wasted". Also, there's a proverb "Time is Gold".

In the year of 2003, also the year I'm sitting for UPSR. I still remembered if you have fail your bahasa melayu subject means you need to waste one year to go for "remove" class instead of form one. Luckly, I did pass my BM and successfully entering to form one.

Also, during the year of 2006 (PMR), is good to say that even you pass or fail your PMR also manage to enter to form 4. However, for getting a better future, I changed school to Sri Cempaka from Pudu Girl School. It is true that there's a much different between this two school in the sense of better environment and better education. Came to form 5 (2008), also the year of SPM, the only three subject that I prepared well are just bm, math and science. So, you can imagine what's my return?(bad). However, once again, Angel is successfully get over it and enter to college.

I always heard people saying that college's life is much more relax compared to primary and secondary school. I admitted that first few week of college is relax but not in the long-run. There's tons of homeworks, assignments, presentation, tests and so on catching you. Supposingly should be relax campared to last year because from 11 subjects decrease until 5 subject to study only. only 5 subjects???yup, ONLY 5. It is much easier to handle your studies. Unfortunately, things went upside down. Do you ever experienced the lowest marks in the class? Do you ever fail all the subjects in your exam? Yes, I did all for this year. I broke the record. In college's life, no one is going to guide you but only you, yourself. The worst part is, the so called 'pass' and 'fail' will determined you can enter degree or not. This means that 'fail' is consider as you have wasted not only money but also TIME.

Different people different opinion. Some may said is not a waste although you didn't receive any certificate because you gain knowledge or literacy. I'm still not sure what's my opinion. What I know now is I just fear of facing it. I didn't experience before. This is my ever first time in my life. And this consider FAILURE in my life?

I always believe that God is fair to everyone. Everyone must have at least good in one thing. I have been searching all the way round but still in a lost. Am I seriously good in nothing? Why I'm still in a lost? When can only I find it? I have been living with no direction in this 17 years.

Failure is failure. :( (just admit it)

I changed a lot.

Happy Birthday Jer Lin!

Happy Legal 18~~

Jer lin, the girl that I meet in my college's life.

For me, she is a happy go lucky person which carry of children attitude.

When she is not happy or angry, she will talk out all the thing from her heart and she will be fine.

I so hope to be like that too but I am not.

Three of us always the best buddy in the college.=)

Still remember the song 'san ren'?

haha~ I know you no listen before but jane know right?

this song is describing about three good friends living together.=)

Ok la, write until here.

I will always by your side and borrow my ear for you whenever you need.

Sorry that I not good in talking.=)

Love you.

Thursday and Friday!

I know, it seems to be my blog went into silent.

Maybe because of the laziness?-DUNO

25 of June

Thursday

That day is my aunty's birthday and also the day I'm having my tutorial presentation. Presentation is not an easy thing for me as you guys know I'm not good in talking. At first, I thought I will be fine. However, everything went into bad. I wasted alot of time because of stunned there while presenting. I felt I'm so useless and why people can but I can't? Presentation is over and can't make any changes anymore.

After my presentation is over, jane decided to sing k with her bf, horng chern and me. Sadly, jer lin couldn't make it to join us along. It's really very fun! especially the part where horng chern made those sound while singing 'cai hong' made us keep on laughing non-stop.=). thank you alot!

We sang until 4 something around 5o'clock and went back. I bought a birthday cake from secret recipe before went back too. On the way back, I stopped in tesco to bought two big apple donnuts and bought a chocolate for my aunty.

At night, I seriously very down. So, I drove to my aunty house and wasted my time on there instead of staying in the room facing the laptop.After celebrate with aunty, I went back and straight away went to sleep.

26 of June

Friday

Received a bad new, the king of pop,Michael Jackson had leave us. Rest in peace, M.J.! Whenever I order cincau+soya, will let me remind of M.J. for sure.

Today, after finish our class around 3 o'clock, again, jane, her bf, horng chern and I went to sunway to test our luck whether can get four seats to watch transformer.And ya, we manage to get four seats.

The movie start at 4.30p.m..So, we went to full our stomach first before entering the cinema. They made alot of jokes!!!HAHAHA~~~ We went in late and luckly the movie haven start yet.This movie is quite long and used two and a half hours to finish the movie.

Seriously, transformer 2 is NICE and funny also! How about compared to Terminator Salvation? both also nice actually, but I prefer Transformer!=)

Watch finish already 7 something, then we went back seperately. Thank you jane they all tagged me along.=)

Dream

I can almost it. That dream I'm dreaming but there's a voice inside my head saying "you'll never reach it".

2 weeks holiday gone!

2 weeks holiday is GONE!

Can I have 2 more weeks?

=(

Thursday night, I was get addicted with the 'Boys Over Flowers' drama.

I watch one chapter by one chapter automatically.

And Finally yesterday night I finish watched all!

=)

Hoping to see them again if there's 'Boys Over Flowers 2'.

In this drama, I like Jun Pyo and Jin Ho.

arrr....they are killing my heart!!!!!

I planed to blog about my australia trip and others more but end up watching the drama only.

So, I will post it when I free during school day.

Jun Pyo (Lee Min Ho)

Ji Ho (haven find out his real name)

I will never ever forget this drama!

Is so touching and nice.
How wish that If I were the girl in the drama.

:'(

Yours?

If is yours then is yours.

We no need to beg or wait the person's heart to become yours.

=)

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Holiday are bored after back from australia.

Monday- I slept the whole day.

Tuesday- Woke up around 11 something and sitting infront of the computer.After ate lunch and helped to wash the dishes, I decided to go leiuremall to watch movie with my sister and cousin sister.was rushing for the 'night in the museum 2' which start at 2.30p.m. but we reach there already 2.41p.m. and end up we watch 'TERMINATOR SALVATION'. Seriously is a nice movie!

Wednesday- Woke up around 11 something again. Actually daddy had woke me up around 10 something everyday. He called me to wash my car by myself and end up sitting infront of the computer.=). I fetch my brother from school around 1 o'clock and went to leisuremall to buy 'cha yat dan'.=).my favourite.=). After back home and ate lunch, I help to wash all the dishes and chit chat with my aunty. Then come back to my room again and decided to change my blog header.

my blog header

FROM

TO

*I wish I can get a maid right now.=(

Australia=)

Currently in Preston, Melbourne now.

staying at my aunty house.

=)