The days

The days where all my friends went to trip and enjoying themselves, I can felt the silent wind blowing around me. Ofcourse, they still sms with me and planning trip with me.=) However, problems just keeping inside heart. Will the feeling be nice if keeping inside your heart? After I cried out everything is ok already.

I bought 'new moon' book from popular today. sounds weird? This is my ever first time bought a book to read for my entertainment. A good start huh?

Keep it strong and move along.

fml? sorry for using rude word. But, who's care right? I only use for myself.

I always believe that don't care how people look down at me and as long as friends and family is NOT then is enough for me. However, don't be innocent ok? The world is not as simple as what your innocent thought. I know I'm the useless one among four of us. Although you always say you do not compare to them, the way you treat me and others, I can feel it. There's no right and wrong because this is a normal human response or act. So, can not blame anyone and just can blame myself that I am useless.

No more innocent Angel in this world right? I can put down stupid love thingy but why not everthing that happen? Let's keep it strong and move along!Yo~~sok yan!=)

My 18th birthday

I'm finally legal 18! My 18th birthday was pretty awesome! lots of first time experience and surprises! Few unexpected surprise birthday celebration from my lovely friends! Firstly, I would like to thank you every single of my friends who wished me. Your wishes really mean alot to me!=)

The day before my birthday, whole family and I went to Pasta Zanmai, Sunway to had our dinner. Also, we bought two cakes from RT bakery house too! That's all my suggestion.

My earlier celebration of my birthday from fmaily was nice because lots of nice foodsssss!=)....Thx u mummy and daddy.♥

After that, Shaun and Ee yin came to house to study account together and ended up I videocall-ing with my little cuttie Jane. She draw a birthday cake for me before the half an hour to 12 o'clock.=) . She also tagged my 'limited edition' of ugly pictures on my fb.lolx.=X

Thank you my lovely Jane. Here's my BIG kiss. muahahahaaha~~~

All in a sudden, 5 minutes before 12 o'clock, Shaun and Ee yin asked me to pack my thing to move out from the house and Cindy was waiting outside the house. I was shocked with an unprepared emotions. Plan of going to Wongkok but closed. So, we went to Sakae. Due to the steak house gonna close, we went back to my house to celebrate.:D

An uncountable of thank you to you guys. the cakes, the surprises, the late staying, the drinks and the heartsssssss..♥....I had a sweet sleep after this.:)

The afternoon, Shaun fetched Cindy and me to Subang to have our group study for account. However, I was so surprised that two of best buddy, Jane and Jer lin and Jia wei was there too. They waited me for like hours? I am here to apologise for letting you guys wait for so long.
I thought you guys were busying revision but you guys still spending times for me. thank you very much. Other than thank you, I seriously duno what to say already. > . <

Also, I need to thank you Shaun, Cindy, Shirl min and Carel for the starbucks presents.=)..(If I miss out some people plzzzzz tell me and sorry about that).I love it very very very muchhh...♥...I want it for like long time ago.=p


After that, Shaun, Cindy and I went to starbucks to do our revision on accounts. Aww, I finally completed to collect 11 stamps of strabucks to exchange 2010 planner on that day too! I ♥ the planner so much. At night, 7 minutes before 12 o'clock, my little cute Lim Soh Jane called me to accompany me to end my birthday.teheeeeeeeee~~~~feel so sweettt...muackz..♥.

21th of November, my pudu girl school's friends of gathering. We went to eat steamboat around the Yulek area.Yummy~~first time eat steamboat with friends!=).After full up our stomach, we went back to my house to have karaoke session. Nerissa and Pui jie joined us later. Well, we sing until half, Pooi Yen asked me for borrow her my laptop. So, I went up to bring down the laptop for her. When I came down that time, Nerissa was holding a cake walking toward me from the door. I didn't expected this will happen because I thought it was just a gathering since we didn't meet for each other for quite a long time. Ofcourse, I'm very HAPPY!=)

We together sing, shout and have joy after that and until 12.30. Thank you you all very much, Pui jie(the ♥ one who help me organise this gathering), Sin hong, Nerissa, and Pooi yen.heart you guys.♥.That night, Sin hong accompany me to stay over night in my house while others went back.=). We watched drama and chit-chating until 5 o'clock and fall asleep.very niceeeeeeeeeee...♥♥. Woke up early in the morning the next day and we went to eat dim sum together with Nerissa. Is quite a long time three of us didn't meet up together huh? Here's the time.=)

Any different of the look? one is taken in form 3 and another one is now.hahaha...=)♥.

This year birthday was pretty awesome! Also the most unforgetable birthday celebration for me so far in this 18 years! Friends, thank you for everything that you have done for me.I know a thousand thank you is not enough to cover up. But, I am seriously appreciate it a lot. *hugies*. love ya.♥

friend or family?

Now, I finally understand why friends stand important part for me. Well, it doesn't means that family is not important. They always stay the first place in my heart no matter what. Do you believe that every child go through the stage where their friends play important part in their life? maybe you, yourself will not realise it but your parents will.

Is that a common thingy that happening around in every child? I don't like to communicate with my parents due to some reasons. However, with friends? I don't like to talk much even with friends actually.But, if I do, I think parents should be happy?hmm...or maybe not? because they dunno.

Next time, I should just smile and think 'I knew this would happen'.

Quiet is the best

If you don't tell anything out, you can't expect that anyone will understand you. However, I'm not agree with this. As they know my situation, they can see from their eyes, and they still don't understand? I'm different from others. I duno what to study, what's my talent and also my ambition. Yea, can define as 'useless'. I know you don't like I live my life without any goal. But, I'm actually searching for it and do you know?I'm seeking help from my friends.

Am I a bad attitude person? Maybe in your heart, I am. Sometimes, I know I didn't use a propal way to speak out or reply a person and I know I always did it to you. Sorry. I know whatever you said and scold, I should listen and respect. Sorry, no next time.

I don't have the power or right to teach or to say a person because me, myself is just like a SHIT. My confident is lesser now. Also, I will be more quiet than last time. Don't be proud of myself because I'm not at all!

I want guitar. I want to play the 'two is better than one' that song.

Ambition?

I'm pretty sure that everyone have their own ambition right? As the year past by, as I am growing older, my ambition seems to be in lost. What I want to be in my future?I have no idea.

Sometime, I do envy my friends when they talking about their future. Their plan seems to be so interesting! How about me? Just will keep quiet and listening to them but feel sad inside my heart.

Without having an ambition, my life just stucking there and cannot go any further. After SAM, I seriously need to spend some times thinking of it. You can only success if and only if you set a goal.